Wow!  I can't believe it's been over a month since I last wrote.  I thought I had posted one more after Chan's birthday.  Anyways.  So much has happened, I don't even know where to begin.  Been working a lot lately.  Lovin' my place.  Lots of anxiety.  I don't think I could be any more vague if I tried.  I'm just so tired, and I feel like I should post.  I think I'll take a nap and then I dunno...  later.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!  HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!  HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR CHAAAAAAAAAAN!!!  HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOOOOO......  YOOOOOOOOOOU!!!!  and many more!    Hope you had a FABULOUS birthday!  You definitely deserve it!  I love you!

Now, oh let me tell you the soap opera drama that has been my life for the past week!!!  I'm not gonna actually tell you, I'm just saying...  I got my own apartment finally.  I don't know when I'll be moving in.  Maybe Monday.  Maybe the end of the month.  Maybe sooner.  Either way, I'm moving in, and boy is my mom mad.  I understand that she's hurt and angry, but please, just stop.  I don't know what to do.  I don't feel like myself.  I just feel like I'm moving because something is pushing and pulling me to move.  I'm not really here, nor do I really care.  I keep thinking and telling myself that once I officially move out, I'll be much better off, but I can't leave.  Not that my intuition is speaking to me, but because I feel that I should stay a bit longer and smooth things out.  Unfortunately, I'm currently paying rent for an apartment I haven't moved into yet.  For a week now, I've had my own place and have yet to move.  And they talk about wasting money.  Well, you're the ones making me waste it right now.  Ugh.  I hate this.  You know what?  I love you guys despite what you might think or how I might act.  That is the plain and simple truth.  You can either accept it and help me if I need it, or deny it and leave me alone because I can't do this anymore.  I'm sorry.  There's only so many times I can say that I'm sorry.  This move wasn't meant to hurt you.  It seriously was to help you.  Yes, I want my freedom, but I'm 23 years old.  I think I deserve it at this point.  So think what you will.  I'm tired of trying to convince you otherwise.  I love you and I always will.  No matter what.

Finally able to post.  Been so busy with work lately.  Had a really tough month in July.  It really bummed me out.  Hopefully this month will be better.  So much has happend lately.  More than I have time to write.  I'm currently looking for a roommate.  I need to move out from my parent's place, but I can't do it alone.  Not financially anyway.   Well, I have to cut this short, but I'll post again soon.  I promise.

YAY FOR ME!!!  I finally sold my very first car on my own this past Saturday!  I actually sold it to Lauren W.  THANK YOU LAUREN!  I LOVE YOU!   And then that evening, I sold my very first NEW car by myself!  I'm so proud!  Today (er... yesterday, Monday) I wore a tie so that they could cut it!  It's all part of the tradition!  I'm so excited!  If this keeps up, I'll be out on my own in about 2 months!  Things are looking up!